March 20, 2013 (a look back)

Whew. When I think about where I was and what I was doing this time last year I am overwhelmed with feelings of blessing, grace and relief. This time last year Cutter was in recovery from his 2nd surgery. He had 8 seizures before going into surgery, and the surgeons couldn't tell us anything definite about his situation. They hoped his seizures would be reduced. They hoped he would be the same little boy that went into surgery that morning. They hoped that the mapping showed them all they needed to know. But they couldn't give us any definite answers. Chris and I were so sad when Cutter went back to the operating room. Our hearts were broken because it was hard to see that little guy go somewhere that we couldn't and let people do things for them that we could not. But when we walked out we were filled with grace and peace and were very calm. That strength can only be given by God! I even went downstairs to eat breakfast with my mom and sister and didn't cry the whole time. As the hours ticked by we were anxious to put our arms around him and hear the doctor say that he was all done. When he woke up from surgery he wanted "Pepi" (Pepsi) and to watch "Lawman" (Gunsmoke). That's when we knew that he was just the same as he was before. He hadn't been in recovery too long when he started singing Jesus Loves Me. The best sound we have ever heard. Can't wait to celebrate tomorrow. March 21, 2013 was the first day of Cutter's seizure-free life. Thank you, Lord, for your many blessings, and thank you, friends, for being there for me! Love you all!